Live In Bukit Jalil

The Gold Medal is won by China!!!

China VS Indo - 3-0

The Crowd of final Thomas Cup dated 16/05/10, China VS Indo!!

This is the first time, I am watching live in the venue!!!Thanks to bb!!

Thanks BB, Love You

Minced pork & salted egg porridge cooked by Ah B dated 05/05/10, tasted so good!!!

The baked bean with lady finger customised by Ah B, Wakaka @@ good combination!!

On Wednesday, 05/05/10, I have fallen sick for almost 2 weeks, still haven't fully rcovered. Always feel so weak & sleepy! Recovered from fever, but started to lost voice & flam cough~~To be frank, this is the time miss mummy so much. How I wish I will be at home being taken care of. But no doubt, my dear is putting so much effort to make me recover!!He made honey juice, bought me chinese medicine and today even cooked for me a lovely porridge which I never taught he will do it at all!!!So touching & surprising. He really play the role as my mummy too!! @@.....

I reached home at 6.45pm, already seen him standing at my kitchen, taught he was smoking there where he used to. When I opened the door and saw the kitchen, he was cooking there!!He was full of sweat, better than go for exercising!!!Wat a lovely meal for dinner today, the porridge tasted so good, even I am sick like hell, the taste is so sweet to me~~Thanks BB for all the efforts that you put on!!Really appreciated...Anyway I feel that I am feeling better from day to day, the power of your great love ~~~Wakaka!! :P

The Lovely Smile ~~~

Picture taken on 16/04/10 in Doi Sethup Temple, the signature of Chiang Mai

Picture taken on 18/04/10 in White Temple which is made from Crystal & Glassess, in Chiang Rai. It's still under constuction.


This Chiang Mai trip have been organised since last year 2009. Finally we get the go for the trip on 16/04/10 to 19/04/10. Unfortunately, Ben can't able to make it due to his PC fair falled on that particular week. So I have to take care of the old folks. During the trip, everyone is so happy & enjoying. Even the weather was so hot - 40C, you still can see the smile on our lovely cheeks.

We have a great tour guide for this trip, she is really helpful & entertaining too!!Her name is Ying Ying. We did give her some tip after we left from Chiang Mai. The precious moment is, I can see my parents really enjoy their 1st oversea trip, keep shopping & buying...This is trip meant for....!!!The smile is craved deep inside my heart. I see them happy eventually bring the smile to myself too! Looking for the next trip ~~WooHoo!!

So Sick @-@

On last Sunday 25/04/10, after back from lunch, I felt so cold after showering, I was trying to take a nape, putting on blanket, it just feel so cold, I felt shivering~~~Putting on another jacket to keep me warm, off the fan and rest for almost 2 hours. My lovely b was making honey drink & herbal drink when I was woke up. Feel so touched.

After dinner, he fetch me home, on the way home, he kept asking me wanna see doc??!I just wanna rest afterall. The next day, I woke up, my head was heavy & pain, feel so uncomfortable!!I was so stoned for whole working day. I decided to go for doctor, got to know I am in mild fever, & sore throat. After work, I slept at 8++pm till the next morning, I still feel the same on Tuesday, but also turn up for work. I just worked blindly for these 2 days. On Tuesday after work, I received a office call, Ah b was calling me saying that he was down stair waiting for me. To my surprised, he waited for me & brought me 'fu cha'. He send me to my car and ended I went to his house for resting. I really never thought he will come and look for me. He said I am sick needed people 's care & concern. Moreover that day was raining day and he was not very busy,also scare I will kena rain wor!!Sounded so lovely....anyway my sick is getting worsen afterall, throat is so painful ,no voice & so cold(guess haven't recover from fever yet)...Feel so heaty!!!

I blog this up, because I feel so touched and I wanna remember it forever!!!Thank you ah b, with your care, I believe I will get well very soon. Every times I wake up looking at your sleeping face, you look so chubby just like a baby. And I feel like wanna sayang you as much as I can. A million expression that cannot express through words!!!I love you very much, Ah B @-@ (Pai sei Pai sei)

不想再任性!!!And Happy Anniversary~~~

The very 1st official anniversary card from Ah B, for our 4th annivrsary--messages was so touched & there are so many 1st time in our journey @@

One dozen of red roses & 3 stalks of lily wrapped togather, really love it very much !!

I know myself very well, I am very stubborn person....When I am mad, the stubbornness will become even worse~~~Day by day, may be age keep increasing, no longer feel good on that...All walk of life, human need to been through, it is so tiring if we keep on behave like this. May be it is time to let go to make myself better & live happily.

Controlling too much is like giving a burden to yourself, instructing too much making yourself feel sickening...??!!Why not choose to pass the day with cheerful mind~~~Life is so short is just like there is how many 10 years in life?I need to learn how to give in & out to make everyone happy, if you can't change a person , why not try to change yourself !!!I learnt , not to expect to change a person but to accept it~~

Just imagine how could you able to angry for your loves one for long time, not even a single day, the heart feel so pain & face full with tearness. World become so dark~~ Everything that you do is feel so emptiness. You can't stop missing him/ her when you are trying to focus on your work!!This is how CUPID has created a HIS love~~~

Today is our anniversary 23/04/10--4th year anniversary, to my surprised, I received a bouquet of roses & lilies with attached card & printed movie ticket"When In Rome". Heart is so touched & the delivery person is the lady who is downstair my office!!!Feel pai sei to receive the flowers which it makes every lady envy of it!!!

"I always think my stubbornness can change my life, but end of the day it is a failure in my life"~~~Learn learn learn to change myself instead of changing other people!!!

I feel so worry!!!

On sunny Wednesday 14/04/10, feel so worry.....!!!The last blog that I written, I still can't forsee any charges in him. Feel so speechless. Last Saturday, we dinner with Phei Fen & Jie Fu at Conne Pizza which is in Sri Rampai. It's a very unique pizza........which we ordered to bring for his family to taste. That day we reached home about 10.30pm. I feel so tired, and slept early that day. The food was eaten by his mum, left 2 Conne Pizza. He was watching football, guess he is still betting!!!I feel disappointed but I just remain silent. I felt so fed up, he didn't even try to change. I can accept it as hobby for watching it. I think he have forgotten his promises!!!From previous conversation, he indirectly telling me that one's habit , you can't expect to be changed immediately. But did they ever try?

The next morning, his mum told that the Conne Pizza has eaten by him. At the moment, I feel so frustrated....But he act like nothing happened!!!I was angry, I know that he stay late at night sure will feel hungry. He will find food for sure!!!It's applicable to everyone, food is so tempting to him, he can't even resist!!I just want him to take care of his health.That day, I just feel like don't want to care anything anymore!!!Feel so hopeless, everyday need to remind not to do this , and to do this n that!! The feeling kinda like f*** up at times!

What is the purpose to do so? I just hope to stay in healthy lifestyle. I know food is so tempting, but of course need to control, prevent is better than cure! !Lately, I find out myself is hardly to control my emotion, at times it just break down & cry, worry sooner I will suffer with depression~~~Guess now I am in the mild depression!!!

好想回到从前~~

On 29/03/2010 at night, feeling for today is so sad, just like the whole sky is being darkened. But whatever it is, life still have to go on~~Remember those day, when I am not happy--diary is my best friend. I no longer write in my diary because my life is become happier. People always say 'Woman is just like a weather'...Yes, i also strongly agreed. But why she behave like that..There must a reasons. But the reasons, many guys won't get to know. Even when his woman is unhappy or mad, he don't even know unless it is being shown.

That's why the book is written' Men is from Mars, woman is from Venus'. I believe every woman always try to make her man happy. Whenever thing happened, woman will just put her man as priority.But why we are still the one need to further tolerate, scarify to make both happy??Can't he just do a little scarification?When you talk to him, at times he treats you as wind blow, because he keep on playing with his advanced I-phone-busy checking the soccer result. You ask him not to do so much betting on the soccer, he will just listen for that second, the next moment browse back the web & putting more bet on it!!!When you telling him not to sleep too late which will cause bad health due to watching football, he will feel you are very irritated to 'popapopa' non stop!! When you ask him come and find you on other day beside than Wednesday, he will say he is busy with his work. No flexibility at all!This is how guy treats the goods to his woman.....But how?When you found out his incoming call pop up with the saved name 'darling' is his ex, what will you do?Just keep silent and happy go lucky?Don't bother to ask?The worst thing that you can't imagine you will do, edited it and saved it with new name by your own!?Suckest thing that you have done~~

In relationship there must have a tolerance, loving, caring only can make the relationship grow more fonder, but what can we do if only woman play the part?Guys are always a weird creature, they will only started to care & concern for you when there is argument/madness happened. So you will always feel not even appreciated when you doing uncountable things just for him. Is this called woman loves the man more than the man does?

I read my past diary, read about a lot of things written between us. The sweet talk, the sadness, the tear that I had.......like a dream to me!!May be I got to know the past might not be applicable anymore. It is just a blink of eye, the wording written in diary kept for 4 years!!Every time I am sad, I will just take out my diary and read, I cry & laugh at the same time, am I sound stupid? But there is always deeply sad inside is ' I am doing more than enough!!!And you won't feel any appreciation ~~~The worse thought that I ever had is to runaway from this place, and live peacefully and take a deep fresh breath!!

When day by day gone, I only wanted to--- :'(对自己好点, 真の好想回到从前~~