好想回到从前~~

On 29/03/2010 at night, feeling for today is so sad, just like the whole sky is being darkened. But whatever it is, life still have to go on~~Remember those day, when I am not happy--diary is my best friend. I no longer write in my diary because my life is become happier. People always say 'Woman is just like a weather'...Yes, i also strongly agreed. But why she behave like that..There must a reasons. But the reasons, many guys won't get to know. Even when his woman is unhappy or mad, he don't even know unless it is being shown.

That's why the book is written' Men is from Mars, woman is from Venus'. I believe every woman always try to make her man happy. Whenever thing happened, woman will just put her man as priority.But why we are still the one need to further tolerate, scarify to make both happy??Can't he just do a little scarification?When you talk to him, at times he treats you as wind blow, because he keep on playing with his advanced I-phone-busy checking the soccer result. You ask him not to do so much betting on the soccer, he will just listen for that second, the next moment browse back the web & putting more bet on it!!!When you telling him not to sleep too late which will cause bad health due to watching football, he will feel you are very irritated to 'popapopa' non stop!! When you ask him come and find you on other day beside than Wednesday, he will say he is busy with his work. No flexibility at all!This is how guy treats the goods to his woman.....But how?When you found out his incoming call pop up with the saved name 'darling' is his ex, what will you do?Just keep silent and happy go lucky?Don't bother to ask?The worst thing that you can't imagine you will do, edited it and saved it with new name by your own!?Suckest thing that you have done~~

In relationship there must have a tolerance, loving, caring only can make the relationship grow more fonder, but what can we do if only woman play the part?Guys are always a weird creature, they will only started to care & concern for you when there is argument/madness happened. So you will always feel not even appreciated when you doing uncountable things just for him. Is this called woman loves the man more than the man does?

I read my past diary, read about a lot of things written between us. The sweet talk, the sadness, the tear that I had.......like a dream to me!!May be I got to know the past might not be applicable anymore. It is just a blink of eye, the wording written in diary kept for 4 years!!Every time I am sad, I will just take out my diary and read, I cry & laugh at the same time, am I sound stupid? But there is always deeply sad inside is ' I am doing more than enough!!!And you won't feel any appreciation ~~~The worse thought that I ever had is to runaway from this place, and live peacefully and take a deep fresh breath!!

When day by day gone, I only wanted to--- :'(对自己好点, 真の好想回到从前~~