I feel so worry!!!

On sunny Wednesday 14/04/10, feel so worry.....!!!The last blog that I written, I still can't forsee any charges in him. Feel so speechless. Last Saturday, we dinner with Phei Fen & Jie Fu at Conne Pizza which is in Sri Rampai. It's a very unique pizza........which we ordered to bring for his family to taste. That day we reached home about 10.30pm. I feel so tired, and slept early that day. The food was eaten by his mum, left 2 Conne Pizza. He was watching football, guess he is still betting!!!I feel disappointed but I just remain silent. I felt so fed up, he didn't even try to change. I can accept it as hobby for watching it. I think he have forgotten his promises!!!From previous conversation, he indirectly telling me that one's habit , you can't expect to be changed immediately. But did they ever try?

The next morning, his mum told that the Conne Pizza has eaten by him. At the moment, I feel so frustrated....But he act like nothing happened!!!I was angry, I know that he stay late at night sure will feel hungry. He will find food for sure!!!It's applicable to everyone, food is so tempting to him, he can't even resist!!I just want him to take care of his health.That day, I just feel like don't want to care anything anymore!!!Feel so hopeless, everyday need to remind not to do this , and to do this n that!! The feeling kinda like f*** up at times!

What is the purpose to do so? I just hope to stay in healthy lifestyle. I know food is so tempting, but of course need to control, prevent is better than cure! !Lately, I find out myself is hardly to control my emotion, at times it just break down & cry, worry sooner I will suffer with depression~~~Guess now I am in the mild depression!!!